Liebe Lucy,I once read 'time you enjoyed wasting is not wasted time'. It really stuck with me. It's my justification for wasting time singing: time that should be spent doing homework or revising for exams. I guess the basic principal of it goes back to the idea that you should do what you love, no matter how much you might feel like you're wasting your time.
There's something about time passing quickly that worries me. I feel like I'm constantly reminded of how quickly I'm transferring from childhood to adulthood and I'm never quite sure how I feel about that. For a long time it completely terrified me. This time last year the thought of living on my own and attending university was enough to give me so much anxiety I didn't know how to handle it. Very slowly, I'm starting to feel like maybe I can do this. My time anxiety is more to do with what I do between now and then these days.
I'm surrounded by fantastic people at the moment and I want to try and make the most of having them in my life before it's too late. I know that realistically people drift apart and I honestly don't know how many of these people will still be in my life this time next year, not to mention this time in 5, even 10 years. I know I'll remember them, but I want to make sure we have reasons to remember each other. Memories to look back on and reminisce about our last year of school and how much fun we had together. Balancing that with achieving the best I'm capable of in my exams in the summer as well as having time to just do what I want to do is all a little bit daunting.
I'm not sure if time can really be wasted, it can just be spent in different ways, some of which are arguably better than others. That doesn't stop me worrying about the ways in which I spend mine.
Love Lucy x
